The view in my rear view mirror.  That’s not a funeral procession, it’s my friend Paul Ruby hauling my Vespa in for repair.  His big blue truck doesn’t fly along as fast as some motorists would like. I finally gave up trying to fix the scooter myself, resignation and acceptance.

A lot of email has come my way about the mechanical problems.  I will have to post a more detailed description of what happened.  It’s not a design or reliability failure of the machine.  Responsibility rests solely with me and my slothful approach to taking care of mechanical business.

I could fit the GTS into the back of my van if I removed the windshield and mirrors.  And if I had a ramp.  The big blue truck solution was easier — just cheated the scooter in between the sidewall and a panini press.  (Paul makes a living selling stuff on eBay).

Kissell Motorsports.  THE place to find BMW, Ducati, Triumph, Vespa and URAL.  It’s like a candy store for grown men.  And women I guess though I seldom see any female riders there.  They’re probably all out riding and not wasting time drooling over machinery.

But I digress…

Inside, in the back, in the garage, someone will have a look at the Vespa and figure out what it will take to get me back on the road.

Here I am, sitting on the back of Paul’s truck with a dead Vespa inside.  The last time I sat like this my LX150 was inside.  I didn’t know it at the time but the drive belt change I attempted a day earlier led to the complete and total destruction of the engine.  I also led to the acquisition of a new Vespa GTS250ie.  The thought was going through my head about what I would be getting next.  And I still don’t know the verdict.

If you want to read that old sad LX150 story, a reminder to anyone attempting their own maintenance when they are a sloppy worker like me, it’s called NON-RIDING ADVENTURE.

My poor Vespa.  It’s in the place where Ducatis go to die.  Like a bright colored metal elephant’s graveyard.  At least that’s what was going through my head when I made this picture.

The plus side of hauling an ailing scooter or motorcycle into a dealership is you get to immerse yourself in a sea of dreams.  Paul pointed out a lovely BMW 1200 RT that he would like to trade in his K1200 for save for this comment, “It costs more than a new Honda Accord.” Craig Kissell can spot non-buyers like Paul and I a mile away.

I left with this list rolling in my head:

Triumph Bonneville
Triumph Scrambler
BMW F800GS
BMW F700GS
Vespa GTS300
Triumph Tiger 800 in Phantom Black

Stay tuned– the mechanic should be returning with a verdict soon and I”ll know if I’m sentenced to life on a Vespa or sent to some alternative mechanical system.

Got the Vespa running this afternoon and had to go for a ride.  That was sweet and in the weather I love.

The sad news — I think the fuel pump died miles from home.  Tomorrow the GTS gets trucked to Kissell Motorsports in State College, PA.  I’ve had enough — I just want to ride.

The familiar pattern, an errand, a chore, any chance to be on two wheels, moving, traveling, riding in the world.  The memory was almost dim until this evening the spell drifted like smoke on a calm night through mind and flesh.

Whispering.

Ride, ride, ride…

And suddenly the scooter is parked in the woods, the sun dying in the west, a simple pleasure of being pulsing through veins, heart beating with a swift lightness.

Riding again, a small scooter, a humble errand.

Remember how it feels, alone on the road, cares washed away revealing enchantment, a trance lined with bliss at just being alive?  The magic of riding — forgotten somehow.

The last remnants of winter, dark, gray, dirty with the heavy feelings of a world too long cut off from the light yet I feel impervious to it’s power.  I only want to ride, if only for a few minutes on a short, ordinary errand.

I remember the bewitchment, the alchemy of air and movement, sound and smell, images sweeping by like a fast stream in spring.

Almost home, a quick stop for a picture of the warm weather location of the Piston and Pints Moto Hang in warm weather.  For those nearby, there will be a Piston and Pints get together tomorrow — March 30 at 6pm at Legends — a lounge at the Penn Stater Conference Hotel in State College, PA.

A few miles on the road rewired my brain, introduced a heaping dose of thrill cut with desire and electricity. Side effects:  quickened heartbeat, easy smile, temporary reversal of the aging process.

Holy shit — I love to ride. I have to fix the Vespa…

The Vespa GTS 250ie still sits in the garage awaiting the rise of the Vespa mechanic.  Tools are ready, parts on hand, even a sign hailing service was acquired hoping to prod the mechanic into motion.  All reports indicate an unusually resistant strain of procrastination.  Theories are mixed to the cause and lasso everything from cold weather to indolence.  Regardless, scooter riding has ground to a halt along with a list of other creative and spiritual endeavors.

Still, some things continue on — more from coercion than desire.  These images, all made during the past week, markers along a narrow trail seeking a way out of a mental winter.

Junior insists on walks.  Walk is too tame, runs, wild reckless forays involving blaze orange rubber balls that whistle and sore throwing arms.  No excuses accepted and minor variations in schedule are met with snorts of frustration.  Repairing the Vespa?  Junior couldn’t care less.

Trudging to work to meet his needs is fine as long as the balls continue to fly.

Kim saw the doll first, captured it, resolved the strangeness with her camera as the totem reached out as if to make one last horrible shake of winter stupor, laughing and cursing the actions not taken by the man with the iPhone, the Vespa, darkroom, writing, photography and a dozen other paths thick with weeds and fast disintegrating beneath the sadness of winter.

Kim always sees things first.  And not just in regard to pictures.

Avoidance isn’t limited to the Vespa.  It’s locked cameras away and transformed the needed repairs to the darkroom into a mystical task of construction known only to long gone Druids or craftsman familiar to King Solomon.  With great effort and focus and days of meditation a few moments of photographic expression became possible with the iPhone using the Hipstamatic app, Tinto 1884 lens, D-Type Plate Film.

For a few moments I could pretend to be a photographer.

Two more rolls of black and white film through the Leica M6 and added to the growing collection of unprocessed images, quiet reminders of a road less traveled.

Under a bright blue sky and dreams of warm air a miracle occurred and prints were made.  An excited, agitated buzz of creative energy was quickly strangled by the harsh reality of returning snow.  Gordon Harkins captured this fleeting moment of hope.

A Walmart print.

After midnight, fiddling with Hipstamatic, watching Project Runway and the wild, driven antics of designers pursuing an idea. A dream.

I remember that feeling, that drive.  And I realize now, for no good or bad reason, at a pace all its own, things recede, there’s an ebb and flow to what the mind demands.  Last night I looked at the shop manual for the Vespa again, shaking my head at the simplicity of the repair that has kept me grounded all winter.  Over the weekend I looked at the sink and the minor nature of the repair.

Winter was for rest and reflection.  And with the coming of spring things will change and grow.  The Vespa will return to the road, the camera will fall into compulsive use and the world will be different.

Damn, I am having fun.  And I didn’t even know it.