This evening a friend asked me about leather jackets — the kind you might find in a department store. His son recently got a small motorcycle and he wanted to know if the jacket made him safe. After our discussion of protective riding gear and the difference between a true motorcycle leather jacket and a leather jacket intended for casual dress I could sense fear in his voice — fear for the safety of his son.
Every rider has probably had some conversation about riding, safety and risk with someone who will never be convinced that the activity at best is a fool’s errand but in reality more akin to a death wish. Their fear of the dark is too strong to dissuade.
This evening I took a short ride into town on the Vespa in a light mist, another slow step in my cardiac recovery. Learning to pace myself, respecting my current physical limitations, and not surrendering to any fear of the dark is where I find myself today. Riding provides a wonderful barometer to evaluate progress and location.
Wet roads and dying light are circumstances that must be assessed and managed. They have their own unique challenges and do not bend to my needs or agenda. I bend to them. Looking at the warm pools of light on the pavement, the reflections in the puddles, the soft glow of the evening light, it’s important I don’t lose track of the important matters at hand — that the road surface has far less traction, drivers can’t see me as well, and I can’t see as well either.
Thinking about how well my physical recovery is proceeding it’s important I don’t lose track of what’s important — take my medication without fail, eat healthily, and pay attention to my physical and emotional condition. I can’t get lost in the soft glow of an easy recovery.
Paid a short visit to my granddaughter this afternoon. I’m surprised at the motivation this little person provides to live a different life. I want to see her grow up, walk with her, talk about the world. It’s as if there is a genetic program at work stretching back tens of thousands of years to make sure the young and the old connect.
Somehow, riding my Vespa is intertwined with whatever conversations we’ll have.
The warm weather has given way to a heavy gray sky and a plunge in temperature — a favored riding environment for me. Things look different when the sun is gone. Standing along the road looking across the expanse of green meeting the heavy sky I see only opportunity. Any fear of the dark is supplanted by an expectant dream of adventure ahead.
A portrait of my mother hangs outside of my granddaughter’s bedroom, a charcoal sketch made by one of her friends when she was 18 years old. Her face reminds me of the appreciation of adventure she bestowed on me, the desire to see what’s over the next hill, what lies around the next turn.
I’ve always considered adventure in terms of movement and travel for which the Vespa is a capable partner. Perhaps it was just preparation for another kind of adventure.
Almost home, Vespa along the road, Mount Nittany in the distance shrouded in mist. For me, at its best, riding is a solitary experience. The choices on the road are mine to make as is progress toward a destination. I can’t help but think about how tangled life is amidst a sea of circumstance, desire and dreams.
Oh, the ride is breathtaking…